Speech Of A Woman

Speech Of A Woman


Ayad Gharbawi

I have no real, genuine memories

I can claim to have shared

With any of you;

Yes, don’t be surprised –

What a vile world

I lived through

With you all

Who remember me!

Those sham expressive faces

Your zealous vacant smiles,

Delightfully inert conversations

Phony, convincing under nourishing passions

I played again and again, repeatedly

For everyone’s pleasures

My senses chose to create

Forged humans within my minds

Who then played with you all

So unproblematic was it for me

You now see it was for my good self

To manipulate and stage-manage

You men and women I interacted with

And, yes, you are correct

Linguistics, cultures and backgrounds

Were no barriers for my minds

The plastic and the bone-like

Wooden ones;

And if I needed

To break, and smash

Your entirety

You Soulless Beings

Descendants of Adam and Eve

If I need to,

Yes, if necessary

I chose to

Change,

I chose to annihilate

Your criminal emotions

Your sinful motives to exist

Word by word

Bone by bone

Crumb by crumb of your

Entire physicality

Until I felt

My needs

Were satiated.

Am I

A fake?

Am I

‘Inhuman’?

Twaddle!

Listen to me you all

Faceless individuals of no

Convincing individuality:

My real faces, my minds, I do not share

My own discrete, unknown craving vices

My own veiled unsatisfied hunger and

Its longing requirements

Remain hidden

From you humans –

And good that they all be and remain so!

So how can I still

Be so much entertainment for you all?

Yes, I am a lady of eyes

That love

To stare

Your inquiries away

And yes, I adore

Staring

Your spirits till

They decay

Away

You feel I am Arrogant?

And never more humble a whisper

Have I ever met

Like myself.

Why?

Because Life is a servants’ game of chances

Wherein we flit in and out

That’s what I do so casually well

You want to know how I operated?

I fixate all my obsessions vividly and clearly

Against any opponent I feel

Needs to be extinguished

Those words inside me remain

Trapped

Because I choose for them to be trapped

And I’ll wait for you too

To make sure, I will see you

And sure you

Will crumble back to where you all began: dust

O my dear

I am alive!

And you?

Are

You Alive?

You think so?

You believe so?

Listen severely here to me;

Your sanity is vague, I remind you

And your ways and wages so mean

Your life is so distant

From your reality

While your worries so near to you remain tied

And all that you may give to Humanity

And all that you may share with Decency

None will care!

All shall

Remain alone, untouched,

Occasionally broken down in tears

Forever in that moronic

Game

You classify

As ‘Living’

And I call ‘Dying’.

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