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Christian Disciple

March 1, 2010

CHRISTIAN DISCIPLE


Ayad Gharbawi


Silent Martyr!

How can I hear you, then

If all the Tears

You speak of

Burn

My Face

Etching

Their Hatreds

All over

My brain?

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Chains Mental

March 1, 2010

CHAINS MENTAL



Ayad Gharbawi


See angels

In your mind

In their paths undefined still

See the mirror

Staring at you

Yes, you

All along

I knew that was my message

I tried to give within you

In the eyes of hatreds

That saw somewhat too much

I tried to explain

In my life limited

By chains mental

Ah but you ought to have known my

Friendless friend!

Somehow I deemed all others

Somehow more understanding

I guess I misunderstood it all

All in all

Self Oppression Against Yourself

March 1, 2010

Self Oppression Against Yourself



Ayad Gharbawi


Those that greedily scorn you, they that persist in

Surrounding you and touching you;

Those that innately despise your Being, exist all around you

Screaming themselves to be your

‘Friends’, ‘Lovers’ and ‘Family’

But, think, I speak to you –

For, you are alien in thought and appearance to them

You are their reminders of what they themselves cannot ever Be

You create these Reflections of Fright that breathes

In their intertwined ribs of Perversities;

Listen! For you are what?

You are the Symbol Painful of their Evil

For these Sickening Sinner, who

Whenever contemplating the Lucid Portrait

That you have painted

And that you have so effortlessly

Exposed to their sickened sadistic Brains

And, yes, they become terrified;

Terrified of what, you ask me?

They become severely frightened

Of themselves

And that is why they turn their cheeks

From their own Sadistic Selves

From the portrait of themselves

And they twist now on to another path

Far removed from their own realities

And they thereby

Continue

Their murderous work

Understand, then, the Dangerous Emptiness which is around you

Understand, then, the Culture of Stupidity that they have surfaced from

For theirs is the land of silliness too real to behold

Theirs is the Land of Self-Fear

This is the land of Stupidity

The Civilisation of Plasticity

The Culture of Brainless Beautiful Bodies

Nations totalitarian render masses fearful of authorities on all levels

Yes, how true, but wait!

Nations democratic render masses fearful of what is within each Soul

Their stolen identities, lost and gone

The Screams of Munch reverberate and pound and murmur and sigh daily

In their varied manifestations and voices

In their varied moods and appearances within your insides.

Fear of one’s Self

The fear to discover human bonds, and not the norm

The fear to realize your need for Humanity, Warmth and Substance that

Cannot be attained

For, it does rarely reside in the homeland of the humans – the brain.

Yet, if loneliness and an island you become, you shall suffer accordingly

Social animals we are

Defective society turns your Personality, your Essence and your Being that is real

It turns and transforms you into the forests of Living Graves;

The same decomposing graves that are situated so deeply

Underground; and that lurk frightfully and mockingly

Within the sinister murkiness of your Disconnected Minds –

And then, you suffer necessarily, as you must, given your Unreasonable Realities

For, you are Alone and within Stillness, you exist

Existing in an open cage they call ‘Life’

And I call Self Oppression

And your varied passions and necessary needs do not hear their echoes

Nor do you see the murmurs of meaningful eyes from anyone anymore.

A dilemma such as this, needs to be understood and replaced

With healing ideas, Sacred and Eternal in their Supreme Serenity;

I tell you, o souls, Spiritual and Meek;

Treat the waxy masks around you,

Who casually call themselves your ‘Friends’, your ‘Lovers’, your ‘Family’

Treat them with your steel masks

Enjoy what you can enjoy

Try to nourish your bodily needs

There is no shame in that!

Even though they may be the driest fruits of your existence

For the recluse’s life can lead to further pains and mental torture

Read, write, sing; these Essences and Activities shall help

With the slowed passages of time

Co-exist, inasmuch as you can

Inasmuch as your masks allow you to co-exist

For you know, there shall be a tomorrow for you

The years of weariness and withering wilderness, shall cease

Hope in a superior tomorrow is a jewel and an essence of Humanity

The Fabric of your Life is that Hope

Without it, you suffer being but bitter and dying in your living

In between miserable conflicting strands of emotions and behaviour.

Sad Of The Earth

February 28, 2010

SAD OF THE EARTH

Ayad Gharbawi

September 4, 1989 – Boston


As thinking creatures we must evolve mentally towards achieving a humanity within ourselves for whereas physical growth proceeds unguided mental growth requires a continual and firm guidance on the part of ourselves with the help of society and culture.

So people believe, as adults, that they are ‘human beings’. Biologically so, but mentally they are not for the truth is most of Mankind do not struggle mentally in increasing their awareness of life’s constituents. The average person is no Ghandi or Martin Luther King or Guevara. To be ‘human’ means mental struggle, it does not appear casually – for ironically most people’s lives are routine in terms of work, and lifestyle, yet mentally most people exist casually, rarely thinking in and of itself, rather, more often reacting to events that surround them.

Why do most people exist so casually with their minds? The vast majority of people are sad and sadness is a stigma, just as in truth, loneliness is also a stigma. Rarely will a person who is asked, ‘How do you feel?’ reply ‘I feel lonely’. Furthermore, sadness amongst us all seems a relentless enemy clinging to our routine daily lives. The sad of the earth see futility’s face when it comes to mental evolution for themselves. The sad of the earth exist with a thousand and one griefs: self-hatred, self-shame and fear and so on. So, abused, reviled and chronically ignored by culture, the sad of the earth exist on through their lives daily coping with their mental burden via drunkenness, violence and self deception.

We speak of the sad of the earth and that segment of people who endure and suffer the most from grief – women, for they do not evolve mentally while their identity is raped and their womanhood is rendered extinct and repressed and so they are not true ‘women’, but the acting out of the patriarchal ideas. The average woman today is not mentally a woman from the aspect of the profound and unique sense of womanhood. The greatest absurdity is the self-deception by women who seriously believe themselves to be mentally women. Thus they do not struggle to be a woman, and to embrace her exotic womanhood that has nothing to do with patriarchalist’s dreams perverse.

Sad of the earth everywhere and within us and within you. Recollections of life dramatically vague, while conversations appear empty, repetitative and predictable.

Despair is not merely a resident of the so-called ‘intellectuals’, rather it lies with the vast majority of troubled humanity.

What a liar and hypocrite politics turns out to be, for if the latter’s aim and goals and tasks are to alleviate humankind’s woes and stress then little of that goal and task has been reached by politicians, political authorities and so-called ‘scholars’. Politics has been boring to the masses precisely because the authorities and the so-called ‘scholars’ have rendered its essence chained and unheard and thus the authorities with the political power, along with the ruling elites, have stripped politics of its basic and fundamental raison d’etre.

Politics that is stripped of its essential task has become a boring entity – it is an irrelevance to the majority, for in politics people  do not see the essential humanitarianism within it.

Humanitarianism has been murdered, sacrificed for greed and a world that easily sells manufactured and utterly destructive symbols and concepts like sex, violence and drugs for Man’s mental consumption.

It is indeed the lobotomization of human beings, and those in despair will readily fall ill from the bland Disneyland ‘culture’ and ‘philosophy’ our poor planet is gradually drowning in.

The withering of humanitarianism is masked by the powerful euphemism of high technology – for they tell us we are entering the ‘Age of High Technology’ which is actually a threat but which is always spoken in the most kind tones – even though their intentions are grievous, for high-tech is a grand tool to make Man a mere idiotic, passive so-called ‘human’.

The ‘Age of High-Tech’, the ‘Globalization of our World’ – all these phrases and facts are deliberate and simple attempts to retaliate against what is really, in truth, the Age of the Death of Man.

Ayad Gharbawi

Does An Ideal Marriage Exist?

February 28, 2010

DOES AN IDEAL MARRIAGE EXIST?

June 17 2009


Ayad Gharbawi


Can an ideal marriage exist?

Or is the entire concept a Man-made construction?

Before we start this discussion, we ought to, as a beginning, ask ourselves: What is an ‘ideal marriage’?

Presumable an ‘ideal marriage’ is one where there is harmony, love and understanding between the couple. Yes, there may be friction, arguments and differences of opinion, but on the whole, an ‘ideal marriage’ is one where the union between the husband and wife there is generally a loving couple, who have mutual respect, understanding, compassion for each other.

Do such marriages exist?

Or, are we being over romantic here?

Now, yes, you will hear of couples who do declare themselves to be in a state of blissful marriage; but, can we believe them?

An ideal marriage presupposes relative harmony between man and wife. The question here is this: how can there that ‘relative harmony’ when in our world today we face so many distressing challenges, difficulties and seemingly endless problems? Furthermore, how can there be ‘relative harmony’ when, without knowing it, people themselves are in conflict against themselves? When people have insecurities, anxieties and difficulties in controlling their own emotions?

So, when you have all these factors between two people, how can one create love, peace and harmony?

I argue, that in our complicated and most difficult times of these days, an ‘ideal marriage’ is almost impossible to achieve.

Let me elaborate.

I will first of all discuss the turmoil that exists between Man and himself.

Today, we see people who are unsure of themselves. They have low self esteem, they have nagging insecurities; they have endless worries about ‘who’ they are; they have fears as to how they should behave in this or that social situation.

The fact is, that Man in this 21st century is an Anxious, Insecure Man.

When you are unsure of what or ‘who’ your identity is; when you are anxious about how to behave – then you create a conflict between your mind and yourself. This conflict, in turn, creates emotional turmoil and pain.

The opposite scenario would be: a person who is confident and utterly sure of him/herself, has serenity and peace of mind, precisely because, he/she have no doubts, fears and anxieties in the first place.

But the number of self-confident people are few and far between.

The majority of people, especially the young, are fundamentally unsure, anxious souls.

I will not go into the reason as to why we have this awful situation, whereby a majority of people are in this state that we’ve been discussing. That is not the subject of this article. (I do discuss the latter subject in other articles).

Secondly, Man is in constant stress due to his surroundings – and by that, I mean, his society, its economy, its traditions, values and its culture.

It is not difficult to fathom the reasons and the factors that cause so much stress and distress to ordinary people as they daily face their environment. Take economics. Obviously, in every country and in every society, a major stress creating factors are: poverty, low wages, stressful jobs, insecurity in one’s job (ie. Not knowing if you are still going to be employed tomorrow or not), unemployment and so on.

Another source of stress, is a person’s conflict with his society’s culture, values traditions and so on.

So we see, thus far, how Man is stressed out from these factors, and it is this turbulent, unbalancing situation, that causes man and wife to feel so much pain, aggravation and anger, so that the latter negative emotions will inevitably interfere with one’s marriage.

You cannot separate these conflicts from your marriage.

It would be either naïve, ignorant or stupid to imagine, that one can deny, that the emotional factors we’ve been discussing, can be safely isolated from one’s married life.

Indeed, it is precisely the foolish ‘romantics’ who somehow believe that a married couple can ignore all these emotional factors!

That is why, they are ‘foolish’; because, like an ostrich hiding its head in the sand, ignoring a storm, is not exactly going to immunize you from that very storm!

Unfortunately, there are other factors that can create a dysfunctional marriage.

The man discovers that there are habits and attitudes he does not like in his wife – and, the vice versa. This comes as a surprise for both partners to discover attributes that they do not like in each other. You argue and try to change each other’s attitudes and habits.

But, alas, nothing changes.

So, what comes next?

Anger and resentment as both sides eye each other with a degree of dissatisfaction – but, what on earth can you actually do?

No change, as both sides stick to their guns.

Next, you may discover that your spouse has changed as a personality. This may come suddenly or it may evolve over the years.

Suddenly, to your horror, you discover that, ‘This isn’t the same person I married!’

But, again here, what can you do about it?

You obviously do not – and cannot – love this ‘different’ spouse you are living with, precisely because of the changes that has occurred in their personalities.

And then, there is that biggest marriage-killer of them all: boredom!

Yes, you knew it, boredom!

How can you ‘love’ anyone when you see them day in, day out, seven days a week, 365 days in a year?!

It becomes almost inevitable and inexorable that you get bored!

What, then, is ‘Love’? ‘Infatuation’? ‘Romance’?

To me, these emotions are when a person is exceptionally excited about another person without actually knowing who that person is.

In other words, these emotions are based on a fantasy, and not quite on the more mundane reality.

Quite often, love is based on a person’s weakness and insecurity, and that is precisely why love is doomed to failure.

What do I mean by ‘weakness’?

For example, a person may feel his/her life is dull, boring and empty; suddenly they see an exciting, glamorous person and that creates in their heart a swelling of excitement. This momentary excitement can be ‘defined’, or interpreted by the person, as a state of being in love.

A person may feel insecure about themselves. Suddenly they meet a person who is very sure of himself; a strong character. Not surprisingly, you find that the weak person falls in love with this strong minded person, because the latter satisfies his need for a stronger person, who will cover for his own weakness.

All these reasons why a person ‘falls in love’, are based on false premises and they will mostly wither away in time.

Death Of Man

February 28, 2010

DEATH OF MAN


September 30, 1989 – London


Ayad Gharbawi


For many the turbulence of life are inexplicable and profoundly frustrating our faith in goodwill. What is the essence of personal meaning in a world where human relations are becoming increasingly fragile? What is the meaning of this world when only one in a thousand will succeed in his lifestyle? And what of the majority others left stranded by forces that apparently none can escape from? What is the meaning of this world where millions upon millions are forced to work in underpaid tiring jobs? While the extravagances of wealth are accepted, tolerated, applauded and esteemed, where does that leave the rest of humanity?

The twists of hypocrisy numb and stagger, while our changing moods react to this world of ours. We watch pontificating and condescending authorities speak of facts and visions bearing little relevance that are in any way significant to the average soul.

We listen to the oft-repeated clichés people employ as language has become script for so many a pre-recorded programme with little room given for free thought. Conversations of blandness, set-piece questions and answers and people ‘exchange’ ideas and thoughts on set pre-defined topics.

The turbulence of life are numerous and dense. The sad quality of human nature renders much of our need for meaning and fulfilment a useless quest. The chaotic nature of the human mind renders our hopes and desires resting on fragile ground. For dependence on humans to satisfy our needs is a risky adventure, precisely because most humans are themselves lost with no identities and suffering a severe sense of one’s security.

In truth, we are alone. Alone as any planet, for though you may be part of a constellation of ‘friends’ and ‘family’, and though you may be part of a grand interconnected web of interests and lifestyles and motives, you are still, in essence, alone as any revolving planet is.

In this vast universe where the uncertainty principle dominates, you exist in isolation with no adequate means of knowing your security of your journey’s path.

This truth, in turn, grinds down upon your hearts as we walk our daily lives here there. The heavy truth is that we are all alone and that the caring ones are fast decreasing in numbers. Our world is being divided between the cruel ones and the frightened ones, whilst the brave, heroic ones are dying out, and an increasingly lame society and an increasingly brainless culture, renders it more and more difficult to continue enacting out that heroic role.

The Age of Quantum is the Age of Uncertainty!

The destruction of the self due to its gradual erosion and fragmentation. United personalities are being hacked away by the effects of a profoundly idiotic ‘culture’. These poisonous gazes that culture spits out creates a decoherent, paralyzed sense of meaning to our daily lives.

It is far more comfortable to exist numbly rather than to exist with a thinking mind, because the latter frightens us, given the ugly truths of our reality. For to reflect upon one’s condition is to divulge the secrets of who we are all trying to repress and hide. The hidden secrets of our hearts that would awaken our eyes to the sordid spectacle of human nature afloat everywhere are not so easily to bear, even though the hidden secrets of our hearts we all can know of – if we desired to seek.

For in truth, the real vision of human nature is far too exceedingly ugly to behold!

Yet your persevering repression breeds chaos and greater fragility. Repression creates rage and an increasing sense of being lost in one’s own life. All creatures, great and small, the rich and famous, the hungry ones and the beggars, the middle class workers and the destitute unemployed ones all share one common grief: the sense of a lack of personal fulfilment for one’s vital existential needs.

So what is this life teaching us? What is this life conveying to our impressions? As the days pass by, the years and experiences being remembered, what calculations do you create and what results do you deduce therefrom?

The different sceneries you witness, the deep conversations you have had and the experiences you have been through, what essences do you infer therefrom? For in the final analysis, do we not all have a personal ideology for fine tuning our attitudes and lives in a positive and fulfilling direction?

And what of those afflicted with a terminal illness? What greater paradox can there be in life? How can we equate the authoritative, pontificating steadfast words of some, when for some others extinction is a near certainty and thus making their brief lives so utterly wretched?

Paradoxes of life!

The soldier killed at the dawn of war and the soldier killed in the final hour of the war. The prisoner of war who is summarily chained to an enforced loneliness and a casual sentence of frightful solitude and brutality for an unspecified time. What explanations do we offer ourselves when we try to understand the words and meanings of the puzzles of life?

The delicate nature of all souls in their routine lives saddens us. The quick discovery that life’s offerings are bland and predictable.

The architecture of loneliness; the architecture of gloom; the architecture of mass-produced, cheap, drab houses surround our bewildered visions: these are our home towns; these are our cities – this is where our solitude comes from. The extremely ugly row of houses, the high-rise gray buildings, the dull corner shop, the bleak streets are common sceneries we all witness and experience hourly. This, then, is the architecture in which we are to live our entire lives?

Well, I say there can be no proper, decent and healthy living in these repugnant circumstances. We can only repress our emerging grief and our daily dying and our hourly saddened sighs – if we choose to tune to ourselves. The repeated ugliness of the towns and cities destroys joy, creativity and our remaining hopes.

The morally empty lives we live. The fundamentally directionless lives we live. This is indeed destitution for rich and poor alike, for this lifestyle we are living through creates a crassness within our minds.

This is the ongoing decline of ‘culture’ that I am speaking of, and this is the exact same decline that every ancient civilisation once underwent, leading to their ultimate extinction.

This is our age of the decline and the deadness of our souls.

And as we surrender our sense of the self and joy to the opium, mass produced high-tech rubbish, nonsensical ‘culture’, so too do we lose our own minds.

The murder of Man is now abstract and no longer necessarily bloody: for it doesn’t really need to be bloody at all.

The destruction of the human race can and is being carried out far more efficiently by the greatest propaganda machine that has ever been created: the junk mass media culture of entertainment, hype, stupidities, fast services, bumper sticker intelligence, plasticity of tears and the deliberate ignoring of our noble feelings and emotions.

Americans: I Ask You To Try To Understand What ‘Israel’ Is?

February 28, 2010

Americans: I Ask You To Try To Understand What ‘Israel’ Is?


Ayad Gharbawi

February 28, 2010 – Damascus, Syria


It is so strange and weird to hear so many of you Americans describing us Arabs and/or people living in Islamic countries.

Now you are the most powerful nation on Earth, no? Aren’t you, kind of, supposed to be the most learned and educated people as a consequence of all this vast wealth and power of yours?

Well, the truth is, your sheer ignorance on what is going on, not only in the world outside your country is breathtaking.

You describe the Arabs and Moslems as living in medieval times; women are slaves; we are seen by you enlightened people as barbarians, vicious, head chopping fundamentalist, fanatics who can only love blood and war.

Obviously you get your misinformation from your fanatically anti-Arab, anti-Islamic mass media, which is, in itself, controlled by Zionists.

This is one of the most idiotic thing you Americans do not seem able to understand: you simply do not understand or have any clue to what extent the Zionists legally control most of your mass media industry. And to prove my point, simply read – just read – who owns all your major newspapers, TV channels, movie industry, music industry and so on. It is not exactly a secret that the New York Times, the Washington Post, the Wall Street Journal are all blatantly pro-Israel and anti-Arab.

What does astonish so many of us living in the medieval world why it is you Americans cannot see that simple fact. Again, go and check the owners of these papers, even you say I’m lying.

Who are your major so-called intellectual commentators? The sad likes of Alan Dershowits or Charles Krauthhamer who are all Zionists.  How often do you see Fox, MSNBC, CNN interview anti-Zionists – like Noam Chomsky, Norman Finkelstein or Israel Shamir? You do not. All you see are anti-Arab, pro-Zionists again and again. So, ask yourselves, you great people of America, why is your mass media so biased?

Notice that I have deliberately mentioned Jewish anti-Zionists here. Why? Because the only weapon Zionists have against anyone who dares to critique Israel is that he/she is an ‘Anti Semite’ and that means he/she is morally the same as a child murderer.

Well, I am not American, and I will critique Israel for its complete illegitimacy and I will critique Americans who support this nation, called Israel, that was immorally created by ethnic cleansing its original inhabitants in 1947-48.

I will try to ask you good Americans to understand:

  1. What gives the ‘right’ for Jews all over the planet Earth to simply ‘go and settle’ in Palestine/Israel?
  2. The Zionist answer: what gives every Jew the ‘right’ to go and live in Israel? It is because our Holy Book, our Jewish religion, orders us, or our God, orders to go and live in Israel.
  3. Fine, so your Jewish religion/book demands that you Jews go and live in Palestine. But what about us who are not Jews? What are supposed to do? We have been living in Palestine for 1,000’s of years, and now because of your religion, we are supposed to leave our ancestral homeland?
  4. Zionist answer: Yes, we’re sorry, this land of Israel was created only for us Jews and so you non-Jews, sorry, but you’ve got to pack up and leave.
  5. And who ‘ordered’ you Jews to live in Palestine and by what ‘right’ did your God ‘order’ you to live in Palestine?
  6. Zionist answer: our God ordered us to live in Israel and if you are asking us ‘by what right do we Jews’ have to take over a populated land – then our answer is simple. We Jews, are God’s Favourite People on Earth, and therefore, God wanted us to live securely in a land of our own and obviously, since God wanted us to live amongst each other, then, it follows, that we Jews, God’s Chosen Race, cannot accept the existence of non-Jews in Israel.
  7. Fine. So what do we now do with those already living within your Holy Land?
  8. Zionist answer: we want a Jewish state and that means a state populated only by Jews and that means we will gradually and legally pressurize the remaining non-Jews to get out so we have a Jew only land.
  9. So let me understand you Zionists: any and every Jew can go to Israel and live. But no Arab can go back to his land – I mean those hundreds of thousands of Arabs you ethnically cleansed during 1947-48 and in 1967?
  10. Zionist answer: Yes, exactly, because, once again, we want a Jewish-only nation so how on earth can you stupid Arabs expect us to take back those we ethnically cleansed?

So, I hope you get the gist of the basic Palestinian-Zionist problem here.

Please note – and I’ve said this a million times – I am NOT anti-Jewish. I am anti-Zionist because that so-called ideology is a brutally racist, exclusivist, nationalist belief that simply states that ONLY Jews can live in the Holy Land of Israel because that is how they interpret their religion.

I have mentioned again and again – some of the best philosophers, journalists, academicians, artists, writers are passionately anti-Zionist Jews themselves.

So any of you Zionists out there who are itching to write ‘ANTISEMITE’ on my articles, please, your nauseous, putrefying accusations mean nothing to me.

Dear Americans: try to understand me.

How can you have a so-called nation that publicly says they want to create a ‘nation’ for Jews only? And do not please tell me that you haven’t heard that before from Zionist leaders and from your own US Presidents?

A nation for Jews only?

Really?

And what about the non-Jewish humans who happen to be living there?

Are they cattle or are they equal citizens?

Well, you Americans, think, please think this with me.

How can any state be ‘democratic’ when it is a Jewish state?

What about its non-Jewish people?

Do you good Americans know that every Moslem, Christian, Armenian Palestinian town and village is fenced off and surrounded by barbed wire?

Are you imaging with me: every non-Jewish village, town and city is circled and surrounded by Israeli armed forces so as no non-Jew is allowed to go out and so that not one non-Jew is allowed to go these ghettoes?

Why do the Jews take most of the water resources whilst the non-Jewish ‘humans’ are given the least amount of water? When Jews use garden sprinklers and have swimming pools, non-Jews, have to save up for water?

Why? Is it because non-Jews are equal to Jews?

Is that what you Americans think?

Did you know for any non-Jew to go from village to village, they need the ‘permission’ from God’s Chosen People?

Do you know, you Americans, that pregnant women are denied access to maternity units, because their ‘papers’ are deemed to be unacceptable.

And pregnant non-Jewish women are denied access to maternity wards.

Do pregnant women need ‘acceptable documentation’ to go to any maternity unit in Europe, China, Russia or the rest of this planet?

For God sakes, what do you Americans think and feel of when you look at that entity called ‘Israel’?

Why do non-Jews need ‘proper documentation’ to go to a kidney dialysis machine department?

And if they don’t have these ‘proper documents’ they deny them access.

And they die.

American readers: which democratic country denies its own people the right to go to a hospital?

Why do Zionists deny stationary and text books for schools in Gaza?

Is it because school children in Gaza will become ‘terrorists’ if they actually go to school? Or maybe – just maybe – it is because you Zionists are trying to educationally cripple an entire Palestinian generation of children?

And where are you, you American mass media?

In Haiti, you Americans gave love.

In Apartheid South Africa you supported the oppressed blacks.

When it comes to the non-Jewish humans in Israel, why is it you show no interest?

Please understand one more thing. This article and others are written by myself not just for the sake of writing.

I am a nothing. I am nobody.

I am not Dershowitz or Krauthammer or Richard Perle or Paul Wolfowitz, or Douglas Feith and all the other revolting Zionists.

Though I am naught, but I do tell you that you can beat a human for so long.

Punish him, insult him, butcher his pregnant mother.

Keep on doing that.

But, then, it is strange to say, but even these barbarian, idiotic, medieval non-Jewish sub-humans will fight against you Zionists – they will fight you to the death.

Surprised?

Really?

Who’s been dumb now?!

How Can You Tell Me ‘Man Does Not Live By Bread Alone’?

February 24, 2010

HOW CAN YOU TELL ME ‘MAN DOES NOT LIVE BY BREAD ALONE’?

Oil on Canvas - Ayad Gharbawi

Ayad Gharbawi

February 18, 2010 – Damascus, Syria

I live

From what

Jesus told me

It’s what You told me, Sire;

“Man does not live by bread alone!”

Fine, words you speak

But I Sire I do not even have

Of this ‘bread’ that you speak of

Sire, if you may, listen to my

Temperature

I possess

No money

No home

No friends

No family

No warmth

And then – what now do you say to me

Jesus My Beloved Sire?

I lost my children

I live in a fanatical Panic,

That Obsessively

Is determined

To rip out and slice off my

Remaining mind, flesh and nerves

And you tell me

Still

“Man does not live by bread alone”

What ‘bread’ do you talk about, Sire?

For it is not only I that speaks to You

Sire,

Look at us here, below your nailed Body

We, that some called ‘Humanity’

Has nothing here within their depressed lives

Nothing

It is not only bread or food, if that is what you mean

That, yes, we do ‘need’ to live;

But we also, Sire

We have no security, no protection

No laws to protect us from prisons

Beatings, torture

No one to protect us Sire

From abject poverty, dilapidated homes

Miserable jobs, miserable wages

We have nothing to live for

Do you understand

Sire

How ever can any human live

Within

The Ruins of Despair?

Sire, I humbly ask you;

How can we live

When there are

Conceited Bastards

Who have the luxury of

Analysing the intricate values

Of the square root of

Minus zero multiplies

By the inverse ratios

Of zero

In their abstract mathematics

Studies

While we, here, have no education, Sire

Our jaded children’s books

Have books whose papers crumble

As they desperately try to read

Crumbs of information

That was meant to elevate them from their

Revolting poverty

You have humans shaking

Their corpulent bodies

Across the wonderful distances of this exotic earth

While we, here, Sire

Live, to breathe

So, in time, we may

Painfully suffocate

And die

What, then is your message?

Living by bread alone is not enough?

Really?

How exactly do you like to see us live, Sire?

Mental Patient Writing Something

February 24, 2010

MENTAL PATIENT WRITING SOMETHING

Ayad Gharbawi
February 19, 2010 – Damascus, Syria

I love you all you
Or, all of you
I guess
I should write
Properly

Happy ones
Yes you!
Living you all
Drinking air
Vacuous nonentities
Am I describing myself or yourselves?

Supreme in my brutal
Powerlessness
Inertia is my magnificent pulse
Loss is my definition
That defines
My dumbest elemental stench

I live to see so-called teeth grinding
My teeth
Actually
I talk about
Am I being grammatical correct for you all?

Worms satanic
Within
Eyeballs melting from Sorrrow
And they then
Continually
Keep
Bleeding and looking fractured and pale
Didn’t Sane People
Tell me
Eyes are Souls into
Our lost Selves?
Or, something similar?

Weeping Nerves
That are
To dry
To move
Without a breakdown
I am scared, in a bed, a room
I involuntarily break my idiotically stretched lips
So, I become shy
From you all onlookers
Doctors and Visitors
Or Relatives?
Who’s who here?

And,
If I fake
That pointless
Smile
For any ashamed passerby
A sad banner
Shall be there –
Announcing my
Smashed structure
And functionless music
Will tell you my homeless address
Of my abandoned Mind and Flesh.
—–

Oil on Canvas by Ayad Gharbawi

Reality, Vision and Mind: Function and Structure -Different Entities Or One Phenomenon/Entity?

February 24, 2010

Reality, Vision and Mind: Function and Structure -Different Entities Or One Phenomenon/Entity?

Ayad Gharbawi
February 24, 2010 – Damascus, Syria

I have already said that structure, or ‘reality’ can exist and can, at the exact same moment, not exist.
For example: how can we say that the entire ‘physicality’ of a human being, let us call him our Observer (Ob), can be, at certain moments, at a certain time frame, in certain physical contexts and in certain specific circumstances, be completely non-existent and existing at the same moment?
Surely, the person in question will still ‘physically be there’ no matter what (assuming, of course, that our person in question, is alive) and therefore his ‘physicality’ will still be there?
But, I will argue, in this chapter of our studies, that an Observer can indeed ‘become non-existent’ during certain situations and contexts – relative to that Observer and he will be ‘existing’ at the same moment.
Now, I can hear the following complaint: “But, surely, even if we were to ‘accept’ your argument that a human ‘becomes non-existent’ at certain times and in certain contexts, we can still see and feel your ‘Observer’ and so that obviously means his physicality is still there and therefore, your argument is all wrong?”
Correct, for you, our questioner, the said Observer, does indeed, exist in all the manifestations of physicality.
For anyone, except our Observer in question, the Observer is indeed existing in every meaning of the word.
But, what about, for the Observer himself?
I argue, that as per the Observer, there are moments, time frames, contexts and circumstances – in which the Observer himself dissolves and becomes non-existent for as long as those abovementioned factors remain.
But how can that logically be?
Let us imagine that our ‘Observer’, during a specified Time Frame (tf), is awake but is thinking of nothing, or is ‘blanking out’, as is said. (We have already discussed this frame of mind previously). Fine. So, we can say that our ‘Observer’ is in a vacant state; in fact he is ‘observing’ absolutely nothing and that is why I have been putting the term ‘Observer’ in inverted commas.
Now, within that specified time frame, in which our ‘Observer’ is existing in a completely image-free, thought-free, emotion-free mental state, we can therefore say that his Mind is a complete blank. By the term ‘blank, I mean that the entire Constituents of his Mind are vacant, empty or blank.
Next, I argue, that the Observer becomes as one with that which his Mind is functioning within. His Mind is functioning within a totally empty, vacant state and so his entire consciousness will also be equally in an empty, blanked out, vacant mental state.
In other words, when the Observer is in that vacant mental state, he will have absolutely no meaningful, functional relationship to anything that is going on in his Mind (or – the Constituents of the Mind) and equally he will have absolutely no meaningful, functional relationship with anything in his outside world – that is, anything, outside of his Mind.
It is this proposition that is difficult to get across: that when an Observer’s Mind is in an entirely mentally vacant state then his entire physicality/existence/beingness will equally become non-existent/vacant/empty – relative and only relative to the Observer we are talking about.
Another paradox: for our Observer in the ‘blanked out’ mental state’ he will no longer exist (during the time frame), whilst for anyone around him will still see and feel and notice his very existence and physicality.
So, does he exist or does he not exist?
Again, the answer is both: yes and no. He exists and he does not exist.
It all depends on which Observer we happen to be talking to.
Therefore, the existence of any structure depends entirely on the Observer in question.
So, what can these propositions tell us?
It tells us that concepts such as ‘Reality’, ‘Truth’, ‘Mind’, ‘Consciousness’, are all: ‘truths that can exist in certain situations and circumstances and time frames’ and that can equally vanish, disappear in other contexts.
Notice, I had to put the above so-called definitions once again, in inverted commas; why? Because, language in simply an incomplete and inexact form of expressing one’s ideas and meanings.
Fine. So, what’s next?
What I am saying is that all these concepts – such as Vision, Mind, Consciousness, Truth and Reality – are all ‘real’ to people in certain contexts, and, these contexts do change, and we must therefore understand that all these mentioned concepts are as flexible as they are forever changing in their structures and in their functions, as per their forms, shapes, attributes and any other images you may wish to think off.
The age-old Cartesian view of Mind being abstract while the Body are facts that are real do not hold water, but they are certainly comforting for people and it is certainly ‘easier’ to understand and therefore easier to accept and live with.
We can no longer continue into believing that our aforementioned concepts, such as, for example, ‘Reality’ is a neat, cut and dry, physical, factual, recognizable, structure within our bodies and outside our bodies.
Reality, Vision and Mind all share the same properties in their structure.
As far as Structure goes, I have discussed in earlier papers, how the constituents of these concepts are composed of voids.
Functionally, they act and interact, producing other emotions, images, memories, and so on.
How do they functionally interact?
Vision can affect Mind, and the vice versa.
Take Vision interacting with Mind: for example, a beautiful scenery can affect a person’s emotion; let us say our Observer is beholding before him huge mountains and canyons. He may be exhilarated by the grandeur before him. Take another Observer, and he may be depressed or frightened from the exact same scenery.
Now, let’s take Mind interacting with Vision: we have two observers looking at the same image – a house. Now, if our first Observer is in a state of motion, then the Vision before him will necessarily be affected, while for a stationary Observer who is looking at the same Vision, the image that he will see will obviously look different as per the moving Observer.
I therefore argue, along with my studies, that Mind, Reality, Vision, Consciousness are not separate entities’ (as in the Cartesian model) and are not different as per their inherent structure: they are all equally composed of abstractions and nothingnesses.
It is not meaningful, logical or sensible to ‘separate’ Mind, Reality, Consciousness and Vision as being ‘separate phenomena’, because you cannot functionally ‘separate’ them – precisely because they are in their essence the same entity.
To give an analogy: imagine an Observer is in a room and so are Mind, Vision, Reality and Consciousness are also there and they all this happen to be colourless, odourless gases existing and easily mixing in one room, and imagine that each gas (representing Mind, Vision etc.) has different functions, but they all feel physically and bodily the same for our Observer in the room. Our Observer cannot obviously differentiate between the colourless, odourless gases in the room, but he knows, (or, is supposed to know) that each gas has different properties.
Hence, the question of ‘separating’ them makes little sense.
Let us take a practical look at this question now.
How can one even separate Vision from Consciousness?
Even for the blind, he/she will ‘see’ images within their minds.
How can you separate Mind from Consciousness?
Mind is forever interacting with the Constituents that exist within it. Even when a person is being in a mental state of being ‘vacant’ and his Mind is reduced to nothingness, and even when that person becomes as one with the nothingness of his Mind, his Consciousness and his Mind and his entire physicality will all be equally the same in their characteristics and properties: and that is, nothingness.
Therefore, as per Structure goes, they are all a one phenomenon, but they have differing functions.
They have similar properties or attributes, such as that they can all exist and they can equally not exist, depending on the circumstances and contexts of the particular situation that is existing – again, complimentarity.
They – Consciousness, Mind, Vision, and Reality – are all the same phenomenon in our lives, in our world and in our universe – structurally speaking – and they are therefore all one unified entity, but they have differing properties, functions.